gieth's stupidity

2011-11-11T08:27:00.000+07:00

Too bad people didn’t fall in love at the same pace, at the same time, for the same reasons, and too bad those emotions didn’t move simultaneously. But each act of madness moved at its own pace, one not dependent on the pace of anyone else. It wasn’t like tandem skydiving, where you were connected as you fell, where you were forced to fall at the same rate and use the same parachute. Falling in love was a solo act. I knew that, had learned that the hard way. You just jumped and hoped your parachute opened. Sometimes you looked up and saw you were falling by yourself, the object of your desire still on the plane, not interested in jumping, watching you descend into that scary place alone.

-Eric Jerome Dickey-

2011-11-10T16:22:00.000+07:00

pada akhirnya, orang yang jatuh cinta diam-diam hanya bisa mendoakan.
mereka cuma bisa mendoakan, setelah lelah berharap, pengharapan yang ada dari dulu, yang tumbuh dari mulai kecil sekali, hingga makin lama makin besar, lalu semakin jauh.
orang yang jatuh cinta diam-diam pada akhirnya menerima.
orang yang jatuh cinta diam-diam paham bahwa kenyataan terkadang berbeda dengan apa yang kita inginkan.
terkadang yang kita inginkan bisa jadi tidak sesungguhnya kita butuhkan.
dan sebenarnya yang kita butuhkan hanya merelakan.
orang yang jatuh cinta diam-diam hanya bisa, seperti yang mereka selalu lakukan, jatuh cinta sendirian.

2011-10-10T00:14:00.002+07:00

you won't see me as the girl who loves you.
you'll see me as the girl who has different vision,
a girl with unusual thoughts.
but yeah, let me settle down.
let me realize.
let me accept this.
you won't see me.
you won't see me as what i am.
i love you, and i dunno why.
it's impossible to make it coming true.

2011-07-01T09:43:00.000+07:00

“I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together.”

Lisa Kleypas

2011-05-21T20:02:00.000+07:00

“There’s a reason I said I’d be happy alone. It wasn’t because I thought I’d be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It’s easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don’t have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It’s like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever”

-Meredith Grey (Grey's Anatomy)

Pesan untuk Si Payah

2011-04-18T08:15:00.003+07:00

Hey kalian,
Bisakah kalian diam sejenak dan melihat sekitar?
Kalian tahu dunia ini semakin tidak aman,
dan kalian tahu pula bahwa dunia ini dihuni ribuan jenis manusia.
Bahkan mungkin lebih.
Tapi kalian terlalu mencari posisi 'aman'.
Atau mungkin mengklaim sesuatu sehingga 'aman'.
Tahu tidak?
Itu payah sekali.
Dimana gairah hidup kalian?
Kalian seharusnya juga menyadari,
bahwa di tempat seaman apapun, semonoton apapun, sesuci apapun,
tetap ada cobaan, tantangan, hambatan.
Tapi kalian terlalu takut untuk membuka mata lebar-lebar.
Bukankah ada disebutkan,
bahwa dimanapun kalian berada, apapun yang kalian hadapi,
asal kalian punya dan yakin dengan iman kalian,
dunia bukan menjadi masalah untuk kalian?
Kadang saya merasa, penggalan kalimat itu bohong.
Saya tantang kalian untuk keluar dari zona aman kalian.
Saya tantang kalian untuk melihat kekejaman dunia secara langsung.
Saya menantang iman kalian.
Saya ingin melihat, seberapa kuat kalian dapat melawan dan bertahan.

Keine Idee

2010-12-25T21:29:00.004+07:00

Yesterday I saw the sun shinin',

And the leaves were fallin' down softly,

My cold hands needed a warm, warm touch,

And I was thinkin' about you.

Here I am lookin' for signs of leaving,
You hold my hand, but do you really need me?
I guess it's time for me to let you go,
And I've been thinkin' about you,
I've been thinkin' about you.

When you sail across the ocean waters,
And you reach the other side safely,
Could you smile a little smile for me?
'cause I'll be thinkin' about you.

(Norah Jones - Thinking about You)

2010-11-08T23:58:00.002+07:00

Kau kata penyelamat itu haruslah berlimpah hartanya dan berkilauan.
Tapi bagi saya, penyelamat adalah sesuatu bernama oksitoksin.

2010-10-12T12:55:00.003+07:00

Maju terus aku menginjaki bumi

Hatimu menulang karena uang

Kau, tuli'kan tuntutan hak dan rasa

Menghasut kelembutan jadi kekerasan?

Maka kami berconto ke kerbo

Yang jemu diejek, lalu meruncing tanduk

Melambung penunggangnya bengis ke atas

Lantas kakinya kasar menghantam penyet.

Maka api perang membakar ladangmu

Gunung serta lembah menghawa dendam

Asap mengepul dari tiap kediamanmu

Angkasa bergetar pekikan bunuh.

Maka telinga kami kan merasa nikmat

Mendengarkan raungan tukikan bini-binimu

Kami kan bertepuk gembira

Berjejer melihat mampusnya kekuasaanmu.

Maka anak-anakmu kan kami sembelih

Anak-anak kami bergelimang di darah mereka

Supaya utang yang berabad lama

Begitu berlipat terbayar kembali.

Dan jika mentari turun di barat

Samar agak di belakang uapan darah

Dia menerima erangan mati

Sebagai tanda pisah penghabisan dari Olanda.

Dan jika pelikat malam

Menyelimuti alam yang sedang berasap

Anjing hutan mengais antara ungguk mayat

Merobek, menghisap, menggerutu ...

Roorda van Eisinga

Amarah

2010-07-29T16:28:00.008+07:00

Setipis kulit ari, serentan batang otak.

Sepenuh gelas yang diisi air yang meluap, sekosong padang pasir.

Semerah darah segar, sepanas lahar gunung berapi.

Sederas air terjun, setinggi pencakar langit.

Segelap dunia seorang tunanetra, sekalap orang kelaparan yang bertemu makanan.

Terimakasih. Terserah. Anda berlebihan

2010-05-11T20:56:00.002+07:00

Apapun yang kesan yang orang liat, kalo mereka bilang gue ini lah, gue itu lah, mau positif, mau negatif, gue cuma bisa bilang terimakasih, terserah, dan anda berlebihan.

Terimakasih, karena peduli sama gue. Saking pedulinya sampe liat printil-printil yang remeh temeh banget, yang gue pun ngga sadar kalo ternyata gue punya/ngga punya.

Terserah, karena apapun perkataan orang, tetep aja bentuknya opini. Gue teringat kata-kata temen gue, si Jaki. Kata dia, "Semua manusia tuh sok tau, Git. Cuma Tuhan yang Maha Tahu." (Sorry Jak, mengutip. Dan agak aneh kalimatnya hahaha. But seriously, you poked me with those words.)

Anda berlebihan, karena apa yang orang liat bisa aja bukan bagian terbaik/terburuk gue.

Gue cuma pasang kuping, pasang otak, pasang hati, dan pasang benteng untuk mendengar celotehan-celotehan itu. Sisanya? Sekumpulan nyali.

childhood

2010-05-06T20:25:00.004+07:00

Gue mau deh kembali ke masa kecil gue. Enggak ada beban. Yang ada cuma main, main, dan main. See, how happy I was. Labil kumat? Namanya juga anak kecil. Pasti diwajarin deh.

Orang Terpeka 2010

2010-05-02T21:37:00.005+07:00

Kalau ada penghargaan Orang Terpeka 2010, pasti akan jatuh ke tangan gue.

"Hello, 2010 masih labil?"

Bokap gue selalu bilang, "Hari gini udah jarang Git ada orang yang peka. Baik peka terhadap sekitar, peka terhadap sesama, dll. Orang peka itu sebenernya bisa lebih bisa memahami keadaan sekitar, karena dikit-dikit pake perasaan. Papa walopun keliatannya cuek gini, sebenernya perasa lho Git!"

Yak. sepertinya gue mewarisi kromosom X sangat besar dari bokap gue dalam hal kepekaan.

Gue itu ibarat handphone slide ato clamshell. Ringkih. Dimacem-macemin sedikit rusak. Kalo slide-nya rusak ato flip-nya rusak, lama banget benernya.

Ditanya enak punya perasaan sensitif apa enggak ya .. dua-duanya sih. Enak karena mudah bagi gue untuk memahami perasaan orang lain dan kalo ada temen yang cerita, gue bisa langsung membayangkan posisi gue kalo jadi temen gue itu. Enggak enaknya, gue gampang banget kehilangan rasa percaya diri gue.

Sekarang gue lagi mengalami fase enggak enak itu. Walaupun bukan yang pertama kalinya gue merasa kempes kaya gini, tapi ya tetep aja rasanya sama enggak enaknya.

This world is crowded and full of billion kinds of people, and we're different one to another. Itu yang membuat gue selalu berusaha positive thinking dengan orang-orang yang kurang berkenan dengan gue. Ya walaupun agak terganggu, tetep aja mereka cuma manusia. Gue pun manusia dengan software dan manajemen perasaan yang ringkih dan rentan terhadap virus-virus stalker, backstabber, dan blabla sebagainya.

Dan kalo ada beneran tuh penghargaan Orang Terpeka 2010, dan kebetulan gue pemenangnya, it's my pleasure and I won't regret it.

tribute to the King -- MJ

2009-07-02T07:46:00.004+07:00

hai blog!
hehe.
lama tak bersua nih x)

ini tumben tumbennya gue online di pagi hari.
karena semalem internet GA BISA KONEK! *watdefak
jadi pagi ini adalah jatah gue perawanin internet.
gyahahaha.

oke sesuai judulnya.

pagi pagi gue bangun tidur trus nonton gossip di salah satu stasiun tv.
dan intro buat berita itu adalah .. MJ meninggal.
kaget? iyalah.
secara MJ kan mau ngadain konser terakhirnya itu di London.

bener-bener ngagetin lah.

sejak dia sakit dan ga muncul-muncul lagi itu, gue kangen banget MJ bakal ber-moonwalk dan ber-velvet ria di panggung. gue kangen penampilan MJ waktu gue nonton FreeWilly. secara dia yang ngisi soundtrack di film itu.

gue selalu berharap beliau ini tampil lagi di event event besar di amerika, kayak grammy award atau oscar, dll. karena tontonan itu tontonan wajib gue. hehe. kalo ada event kayak gitu, gue selalu mikir.

kapan ya MJ tampil lagi?

siapa lagi yang se-spektakuler dia?

ga ada.

mungkin banyak yang bisa meniru gerakan dan cara bernyanyi dia. mungkin juga banyak yang lebih bagus dan spektakuler. tapi kalo ga ada MJ, ga akan ada justin timberlake, madonna, dll.

semua orang.

suka atau ga suka.

pasti tau MJ.

dan seluruh dunia mengenang beliau *termasuk gue :)

dan jujur.

gue sendiri masih rela ga rela nulis Rest IN Peace di depan nama beliau.

last part.
lagu MJ yang mana yang PUALING gue suka?

- Beat It
- Remember the Time
- Earth Song
- Soundtracknya FreeWilly *lupa judulnya

sekarang ngapain? liat video video MJ ah di youtube. hehe

you're always in our heart, MJ :)

hell-O

2009-06-20T07:05:00.007+07:00

hey kawan! *apaih gue

udah lama nih ga update blog.
ampe ada sarang laba2 gitu hehe.

so how's life?

gini gini aja.ga ada yang spesial sama sekali.cuma baru selesaii ulangan aja.
*phew at last

ohya gue mau cerita nih.kemaren gue jalan jalan sama anak-anak FOLKLORE. traktiran ultah sih hehehe.
*yang gratis aja semangat xD
yaa walopun ga semuanya ikut, tapi tetep seru! hehe.
dari rencana mau nonton GARUDA DI DADAKU tapi gajadi karena penuh dan akirnya nonton POCONG KAMAR SEBELAH yang notabene horor ala indonesia yang banyak bokepnya zz

tapi selama nonton itu seru.hehe.3 temen gue [cowok] ketakutan.

orang pertama nutup mata pake botol [?].
orang kedua nutup mata pake plastik.
orang ketiga nutup mata pake baju.
trus ngata2in.lompat lompat *oke.pundak gue jadi korban zz

then, next destination .. GOKANA TEPPAN!

makan makan di gokana teppan dan berakir dengan muka penuh krim hahaha.
yang paling ajip, MBA TIFANI! penuh hehehe *amvun mba amvun x)

last words, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR BAYU, TIFANNI & OM GEMMY [rhoma haha]
makasi buat traktirannya.

mau liat fotonya?
nih nih gue kasih.

selanjutnya? GUE!
oh noo x(

TAG dari AGNI

2008-12-30T16:06:00.003+07:00

gue dikasi pe er beginian.
hoaahh !!

This is the rules : take a recent photo of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair, just take a picture post that picture with no editing post this instruction with your picture tag 10 people to do this.

dan ini hasilnya *teroreroreroreroreeeeettttt

ni gue masih dalam keadaan acak adul setelah berjam-jam di depan laptop gue.cuma siap sedia kamera hape, ga peduli teknik foto memfoto, langsung jepret, dan anda bisa melihatnya di atas sanaa.

siapa yang bakal gue tag yee ? hihi.
yang gue tag, KUDU DI KERJAIN PE ER NYEEE !!!
awas lu kaga di kerjain.
*masang tampang sangar yang maksa.

self test *thy for agni :)

2008-12-07T17:15:00.002+07:00

hasil self test gue..

Gita is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Gita will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Gita an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Gita is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Gita is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Gita doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Gita will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Gita believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Gita will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Gita can be defiant. She sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn't like it the way she is doing it, then they can just "go to hell!" This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which she thinks are infringing upon her freedom of action.

In reference to Gita's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Gita slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Gita can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Gita's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Gita that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Gita also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Gita is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Gita's self-concept is artificially low. Gita will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Gita to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Gita is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Gita has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Gita has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Gita fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Gita has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Gita is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Gita would like to leave the past behind and move on.

*well,,ada yang ga sesuai kenyataan.haha.
but mostly..gue banget :)

gue mendadak geje

2008-10-18T00:10:00.004+07:00

beuh !
gue rasa selera musik org udah mulei berubah drastis ..
hehehe.

waktu itu di kelas gue lagii pelajaran kosong.
otomatis kelas gue rame.
pecicilan sana sini.
ada aja yg loncat dari meja.
koar koar kea preman pasar.
ada yg ngaku" jadi bajak laut.
hahak.

dan yg pasti ada yg lagi duduk di depan PC kelas gue.

naah.
tmen gue yg lagi nongkrong di depan PC itu lagi donlot video klip getu.
abis donlot,langsung di tampilin pake proyektor kelas.
awalnya sih bagus.
video klip na boyz2men,mariah carey,jordin sparks,RAN,dll.

tapi tiba tiba ....

KO ADA DEWI PERSIK SAMA GLENN FREDLY ?????

jahh.
gue udah pewe nonton noh pidio,eh muncul itu.
wakwak.

itu video klip hikayat cinta by glen fredly .feat dewi perssik.
wakwak.
langsung semua duduk dengan tenang.
gg ada suara.
pada fokus sama nohh pidio.

ehh.. tiba2 temen gue ada yg request KANGEN BAND yg judulnya YOLANDA !!!
elah busett.
temen gue beneran donlot nohh pidioo !
yodah.
gue sama temen gue menanti pidio itu.
ehh.
buffer nya lama.
malai ahh.
liat DOY aja !
wakwak.

beneran juga dah temen gue nyari pidioo DOY.
sekelas langsung pada ketawa najis gituu.
ketawa najis tapi ga berenti berenti.
jaahh XD

pass pulangnya ..

gue sama temen gue ngemeng2 ttg pidio nya dewi perssik sama glen fredly.
terjadilah percakapan paling geje sedunia ...

+ [temen gue] "ehh,dewi perssik najong bgd iih ! kea pec*n !"
- [gue] "yaelah.dewi perssik mahh masi pec*n middle class.belon high class.yg high class noh sarah azhari."
+ "ahh.kaga.dia juga middle class.gue tao sapa pec*n high class !"
- "hah ! sapa sapa ??"
+ "alda rismaa .."
- [krik..krik..gue terdiam]

jujur.
ni postingan gue yg paling geje.
hoho.

wake up,git !!~

2008-10-11T10:22:00.001+07:00

ni blog gue.
sebenernya sih udah lama.
udah lumayan banyak postingan gue.
tapi ..
itu masa lalu gue dan gue sama sekali gamau inget ato baca segala sesuatu ttg masa lalu gue.
nyakitin gue doang.
so,i delete it all at once.

dan sekarang... i am reborn ..
doakan sajalah.
setelah gue reborn dapet suatu pencerahan *duileee
haha.